2009 version

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Chantel
Birthday:	June 11
Birthplace:	edmonton
Current Location:	sherwood park
Eye Color:	blue
Hair Color:	brown
Height:	5"3
Right Handed or Left Handed:	right
Your Heritage:	mutt
The Shoes You Wore Today:	n/a
Your Weakness:	my emotions
Your Fears:	my emotions/falling
Your Perfect Pizza:	everything
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	weight loss be a success
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	haha
Thoughts First Waking Up:	that was a messed up dream!
Your Best Physical Feature:	eyes
Your Bedtime:	10
Your Most Missed Memory:	camp
Pepsi or Coke:	coke
MacDonalds or Burger King:	mcd's
Single or Group Dates:	single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	good host
Chocolate or Vanilla:	vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee:	coffee
Do you Smoke:	cigars
Do you Swear:	yeah
Do you Sing:	yeah (not that anyone wants to hear me)
Do you Shower Daily:	mostly
Have you Been in Love:	think so, or I was just too obsesed I didn't see it for what it was.
Do you want to go to College:	again yes
Do you want to get Married:	yes
Do you belive in yourself:	at times
Do you get Motion Sickness:	yes
Do you think you are Attractive:	at times
Are you a Health Freak:	at times
Do you get along with your Parents:	at times
Do you like Thunderstorms:	yes
Do you play an Instrument:	nope
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	yes
In the past month have you Smoked:	no
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	no
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	no
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	no
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	no
In the past month have you been on Stage:	no
In the past month have you been Dumped:	no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	no
Ever been Drunk:	yes
Ever been called a Tease:	yes
Ever been Beaten up:	yes by my sisters
Ever Shoplifted:	no
How do you want to Die:	is a plane that is thrown around by a tornato while a terroriest is attacking it, but most importantly I'm dieing in my sleep while this is all going down. oh and a metiorite the size of the moon is hitting earth haha, if I'm going you're all coming with.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	happy
What country would you most like to Visit:	Ireland
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	green
Favourite Hair Color:	brown
Short or Long Hair:	short
Height:	quite a bit taller then me
Weight:	n/a
Best Clothing Style:	n/a
Number of Drugs I have taken:	depends... I've taken a lot of tylonal in my time haha
Number of CDs I own:	n/a I've lost lots/can't count the ones I have now.
Number of Piercings:	in all time 8 for now pretty much just 2-4
Number of Tattoos:	n/a
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	getting into debt
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could be?

so ever feel like nothing makes sense...

then all of a sudden you get a "could be" eureka moment
where all your ducks seem to be in a row.

that's what tonight feel like.
maybe more to follow later?

crazy

so I'm going crazy... or emotionally crazy? does that make sense.

so in April my uncle, or even my second dad one might say died. It was coming but in all honestly it felt like it came out of no where. My heart broke, and world literally stopped turning nothing else mattered. Slowly I steped back in the spinning world with glimpse of what I saw, what I felt, what I heard and the emotion keeps pouring back in.

so now I'm confused again.

I have memories that pop back in and I just want to cry and generally do.

well now I've been obsessing over Heath ledger... why I don't know

but I honestly in some ways feel like I know him... that makes no sense but I have dreams of him and usually it's images of him before he died and they weren't bad. I honestly think it was an accident and he just shouldn't have taken them all those pills together. Perhaps they were ment for certain times of the day example one he takes in the mornings and the other at night etc. So maybe it was just miss reading or who knows what. Or just maybe he knew exactly what he was doing and that's that. I think the thing that upsets me most is that his daughter was so young, he was so young and just how people portray him as going mad after the joker role. so weird because he said he loved that role in interviews and what not.

oh well

anyhow I just thought I'd mention that.

Fascinated by God

fascinated how everything works out.
God has this plan.
that's it.
that's how everything works.
God plans it.
seems chaotic.
everything is spinning spinning dropping out of control
but God has it, worked out.
the very day, hour, minute and then second it needs to take place.
so awesome.
I love you God.
I love that you heal all wounds and have Patience to wait for us to ask for help.
You are everything, and I love that.
Thank You!!!